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elq9yf
Y’all
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help-seeking
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I just need to talk to someone privately. I fucked something up big time and I need help.
Sam29235
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2020-01-08 08:58:40
alcoholicsanonymous
<rs>I just need to talk to someone privately. <re><es>I fucked something up big time and I need help.<ee>
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what did you do
How did X make you feel?
what you did
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ekfge3
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chitchat
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Mysteriously7
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2020-01-05 16:49:57
socialanxiety
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eksfwo
I did something horrible to feel alive and now I don't know what to do
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rant
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idk if this post fits here but I couldn't find another sub so let me know if there's somewhere else i should post this? I've been having a really rough time lately, I hurt my ankle really bad so I havent been outside a lot and my depression is getting worse. I lost my job just before Christmas. I failed 2 classes this...
69justathrowaway420
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2020-01-06 10:39:38
mentalillness
idk if this post fits here but I couldn't find another sub so let me know if there's somewhere else i should post this? <es>I've been having a really rough time lately, I hurt my ankle really bad so I havent been outside a lot and my depression is getting worse.<ee> <es>I lost my job just before Christmas.<ee> <es>I f...
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how impulsive stealing makes you feel
What do you need help with now that X?
you have a panic attack due to impulsive stealing
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ej45na
i want to go back to the psych ward
1b
rant
1
i've been spiraling down a dark path and god i just want to go back to the ward the nurses were so nice and they actually helped and it was j a really good experience and i'm at the point where i don't feel like i can keep myself self and i want to fucking die bc my parents are abusive fucktards who ruin everything in ...
toogayforthisworld_
1
0
0
2020-01-02 20:56:57
mentalillness
i've been spiraling down a dark path and god i just want to go back to the ward the nurses were so nice and they actually helped and it was j a really good experience and i'm at the point where i don't feel like i can keep myself self and i want to fucking die bc my parents are abusive fucktards who ruin everything in ...
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ejr4so
How to make friends.
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help-seeking
1
Does anyone care to share their insight into this. Do you think to get the most out of life and social interactions in my case, you must constantly be in a state of motion and risk. It's like emotional pain is necessary in bringing the kind people out to brighten up your day a bit.
cheese_monkey_92
1
0
0
2020-01-04 03:45:10
mentalillness
Does anyone care to share their insight into this. Do you think to get the most out of life and social interactions in my case, you must constantly be in a state of motion and risk. It's like emotional pain is necessary in bringing the kind people out to brighten up your day a bit.
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eihqed
Undiagnosed and losing hope
1c
survey
2
I'm 32F and quite sure I have ADD - inattentive type. I guess I've been in denial since I grew up in a very chaotic household with my mom, who still doesn't see her own issues. Later on in my early/mid-twenties I was in a six year relationship with my boyfriend who was diagnosed with ADHD last year. I've had multiple...
blobbslobb
1
0
2
2020-01-01 12:09:49
ADHD
<es>I'm 32F and quite sure I have ADD - inattentive type.<ee> <es>I guess I've been in denial since I grew up in a very chaotic household with my mom, who still doesn't see her own issues.<ee> <es>Later on in my early/mid-twenties I was in a six year relationship with my boyfriend who was diagnosed with ADHD last year....
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ep3z8i
2020-01-15 00:00:00
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chitchat
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Tomorrow I will have 1 year clean from all substances.
cheylove2
1
0
5
2020-01-15 15:50:54
OpiatesRecovery
Tomorrow I will have 1 year clean from all substances.
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einlyp
My brain remembers things in feelings and irrelevant details. It it my ADHD or just me?
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survey
2
So, I've noticed that when I remember things I remember the most random details, which are generally not the important part of what I need to remember. Like, a coworker asked me about the date of an event, and my brain was like "Welp, the flyer was blue and above the water fountain that makes that weird sound and the c...
BagelsAndTeas
1
0
7
2020-01-01 20:53:11
ADHD
<es>So, I've noticed that when I remember things I remember the most random details, which are generally not the important part of what I need to remember.<ee> <es>Like, a coworker asked me about the date of an event, and my brain was like "Welp, the flyer was blue and above the water fountain that makes that weird sou...
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How did X make you feel?
remembering irrelevant details
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es7201
My GF was assaulted and it created an emotion mess between us. Need some advice
1b
help-seeking
3
Hi brave people of this subreddit. I come here to ask for advice and guidance as this has been very difficult for both of us. I would like to keep it short but I think it will be kinda hard, but will try my best. I am in a relationship that's been going for almost 8 years now. We know each other since high scho...
emotional_wreck_2
1
0
12
2020-01-22 04:49:52
rapecounseling
Hi brave people of this subreddit. <rs>I come here to ask for advice and guidance as this has been very difficult for both of us.<re> I would like to keep it short but I think it will be kinda hard, but will try my best. <es>I am in a relationship that's been going for almost 8 years now.<ee> <es>We know each o...
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eqy3m3
Sunday, Jan 19 2020 Check In
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survey
1
How is everybody doing round these parts today? I am doing very good. My old plug got raided yesterday. He is fucked. I feel bad for his family, I haven't seen him in quite awhile. He made the choice s though. Today I just plan on going a meeting and working on my Steps. Its freezing in Chicago today.
c0mm0nSenseplz
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0
10
2020-01-19 16:07:07
OpiatesRecovery
How is everybody doing round these parts today? I am doing very good. My old plug got raided yesterday. He is fucked. I feel bad for his family, I haven't seen him in quite awhile. He made the choice s though. Today I just plan on going a meeting and working on my Steps. Its freezing in Chicago today.
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eihc37
Wish I were dead
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rant
1
Yeah
sortadark
1
0
3
2020-01-01 11:14:26
BPD
<efs>Wish I were dead<efe> Yeah
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What made you feel X ?
you wish you were dead
Can you elaborate more on X ?
how you are feeling
What can help you overcome X ?
this feeling of wishing to be dead
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ek5vtj
Can an alcoholic stop loving his significant other just by quitting alcohol?
1b
help-seeking
1
My alcoholic ex and I broke up a couple months ago. He was actively drinking throughout our relationship. One week after he stopped drinking, he went from all the “i love you” and “I can’t imagine my life without you” to “i don’t love you anymore”, and has been like that ever since. He’s been sober (or dry? he refuses ...
tomriddleforlife
1
0
8
2020-01-05 01:26:24
alcoholicsanonymous
<es>My alcoholic ex and I broke up a couple months ago.<ee> <es>He was actively drinking throughout our relationship.<ee> <es>One week after he stopped drinking, he went from all the “i love you” and “I can’t imagine my life without you” to “i don’t love you anymore”, and has been like that ever since.<ee> <es>He’s bee...
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how your ex not loving you anymore made you feel
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eib1rb
My new years resolution
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chitchat
1
I'm gonna get my ass into a therapists office, and if I dont become even a little bit happy, then I'm not dealing with this shit anymore. I'm not asking for a lot, just a little bit of serotonin is all I want
LimeLegos
1
0
4
2020-01-01 00:03:57
depression
<rs><efs>I'm gonna get my ass into a therapists office, and if I dont become even a little bit happy, then I'm not dealing with this shit anymore.<efe><re> I'm not asking for a lot, just a little bit of serotonin is all I want
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What made you feel X ?
unhappy
Can you elaborate more on X ?
how you are feeling
Can you elaborate more on X ?
what would help you become happy
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eil6qg
No one will read this, but it’s a story about my weird SH experience
1a
rant
2
So basically I was on the middle school football team and I was about 13, and one day before practice, I decided to relapse because of a mental breakdown I had. I hid the scars pretty well that day, but during practice I had nothing to cover the scars so I was freaking out. I eventually got noticed by one of my friends...
GrayGhost82
1
0
4
2020-01-01 17:51:31
selfharm
<es>So basically I was on the middle school football team and I was about 13, and one day before practice, I decided to relapse because of a mental breakdown I had.<ee> <es>I hid the scars pretty well that day, but during practice I had nothing to cover the scars so I was freaking out.<ee> <es>I eventually got noticed ...
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What do you need help with now that X?
your coach saw your scars
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eiao0r
I've been self harm free since the end of 2018. Hoping to keep my streak throughout 2020 and beyond :)
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chitchat
1
Heres to a better future :)
locked-and-loading
1
0
4
2019-12-31 23:33:11
selfharm
Heres to a better future :)
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eli65u
I (m43) quit using drugs and drinking on Thanksgiving, but now I feel I don't know my wife (f41) and kids (m15 &amp; m24) anymore.
1a
help-seeking
2
I have been with my wife since we were kids in school.I am 43 and she is 41. We have 2 kids both boys. 24 and 15. We have been together 25 years. Yes we were teen parents and its not been easy at all, but we made it work as best we could, I am sure I failed in many many respects. I was a party animal in both High Sch...
Burner-x-1976
1
0
7
2020-01-07 21:34:59
addiction
I have been with my wife since we were kids in school.I am 43 and she is 41. We have 2 kids both boys. 24 and 15. We have been together 25 years. Yes we were teen parents and its not been easy at all, but we made it work as best we could, I am sure I failed in many many respects. <es>I was a party animal in both High...
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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How did X make you feel?
the tension with your family
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ftoicx
Where to take things from here?
1a
help-seeking
2
Am currently on Wellbutrin and am relatively functional. I work (well, normally. Not during a pandemic), I clean, and exercise-ish, working on the food (cooking and eating is tedious for me). I still have very bad days and I struggle to set and meet goals. I still don't really see a future "worth living" and have SI d...
meadowcap
1
0
3
2020-04-02 15:40:31
getting_over_it
<rs>Where to take things from here? <re> <es>Am currently on Wellbutrin and am relatively functional.<ee> <es>I work (well, normally. Not during a pandemic), I clean, and exercise-ish, working on the food (cooking and eating is tedious for me).<ee> <es>I still have very bad days and I struggle to set and meet goals.<e...
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ejdud0
Losing your FP
1b
help-seeking
1
So after an argument last night I have completely lost my FP. I feel so alone now absolutely empty. I can't even cry. I feel so betrayed and not good enough. I tried explaining to him why I lashed out and why I've been so different the last few days and he just doesn't seem to care, immediately he refers me and compar...
bpdslut99
2
0
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2020-01-03 10:48:54
BPD
<es>So after an argument last night I have completely lost my FP.<ee> <efs>I feel so alone now absolutely empty.<efe> <efs>I can't even cry.<efe> <efs>I feel so betrayed and not good enough.<efe> <es> I tried explaining to him why I lashed out and why I've been so different the last few days and he just doesn't seem to...
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eiddzn
Social anxiety on New Years, trying to find the courage to go out and enjoy the festivities at the bar but needing help. Feels pretty lonely spending the first New Years after divorce.
1b
help-seeking
1
Came on vacation with my family to the carribean and made plans with my stepdad to go to the bar and have some drinks, celebrate New Years and watch the fireworks. He decided last minute he was too tired and he was just going to sleep. I’ve recently divorced and now spending my first New Years by myself, and it feels...
throwaway191972
1
0
2
2020-01-01 03:33:50
Anxiety
<es>Came on vacation with my family to the carribean and made plans with my stepdad to go to the bar and have some drinks, celebrate New Years and watch the fireworks.<ee> <es>He decided last minute he was too tired and he was just going to sleep.<ee> <es>I’ve recently divorced and now spending my first New Years by ...
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er07u3
Want to know how dangerous tramadol withdrawal is?
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help-seeking
1
I took 400mg modafinil with caffeine and i fell asleep soundly. I have no modafinil tolerance too...
Prudent-Jellyfish
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0
5
2020-01-19 18:39:55
OpiatesRecovery
<rs>Want to know how dangerous tramadol withdrawal is?<re> <es>I took 400mg modafinil with caffeine and i fell asleep soundly.<ee> <es>I have no modafinil tolerance too...<ee>
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
why you are taking modafinil
How did X make you feel?
not taking tramadol
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eict26
I feel like shit
1a
help-seeking
1
I really need some advice, the new year is only 30 minutes away, and my year was rough. I started having panic attacks in the final exams of the first semester after I doubled the dose of Ritalin, and then anxiety just haunts me. I had to quit my job at an excelente Company, Boston Scientific, because whenever I'm driv...
dudekeller
1
0
1
2020-01-01 02:36:41
Anxiety
<rs>I really need some advice, the new year is only 30 minutes away, and my year was rough.<re> <es>I started having panic attacks in the final exams of the first semester after I doubled the dose of Ritalin, and then anxiety just haunts me.<ee> <efs>I had to quit my job at an excelente Company, Boston Scientific, beca...
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
what causes the anxiety attacks
How did X make you feel?
the panic attacks
What do you need help with now that X?
the drugs are unable to control your anxiety
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eif7nw
Leaving self harm in the last decade
1a
rant
1
I've told myself multiple times that I would stop self harming during the past 5 years I've done it for but I always go back to it. I stopped October of last year (happy new year guys!) and I'm planning on never doing it ever again in my life. When I started and these past 5 years I always felt so alone and had no one...
necroticcheetah
1
0
1
2020-01-01 06:38:19
selfharm
<es>I've told myself multiple times that I would stop self harming during the past 5 years I've done it for but I always go back to it.<ee> <es>I stopped October of last year (happy new year guys!) and I'm planning on never doing it ever again in my life.<ee> <efs>When I started and these past 5 years I always felt so...
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1
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
why you harm yourself
Can you elaborate more on X ?
cutting yourself
What do you need help with now that X?
you are planning to stop doing self harm
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emmgn9
Dont blame all your problems on drugs and dont expect life to magically get perfect when you manage to stay sober
1a
rant
2
Wouldn't say my use is unhealthy. I (25M) have a stressful job and drink almost every single day. Usually just a couple beers with my wife, I go to bars a couple times a week and get wasted once or twice a month on average. I smoke pot regularly but it's usually all or nothing. I'll smoke half a blunt or a bit more per...
boredbelgian
1
0
1
2020-01-10 05:25:45
addiction
Wouldn't say my use is unhealthy. I (25M) have a stressful job and drink almost every single day. Usually just a couple beers with my wife, I go to bars a couple times a week and get wasted once or twice a month on average. I smoke pot regularly but it's usually all or nothing. I'll smoke half a blunt or a bit more per...
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ekqa6s
Having a breakdown now
1a
rant
2
Is funny how I come to a point in my life where every single thing I try to do for my best is seen as something stupid. Trying to go for art and animation major instead of something "normal" for my parents was a huge disappointment and my friends don't really give a fuck also, not seeking approval but sometimes having...
Doobwoog
1
0
1
2020-01-06 06:46:25
sad
<es>Is funny how I come to a point in my life where every single thing I try to do for my best is seen as something stupid.<ee> <es>Trying to go for art and animation major instead of something "normal" for my parents was a huge disappointment and my friends don't really give a fuck also, not seeking approval but some...
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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How did X make you feel?
being ridiculed for whatever you do
Can you elaborate more on X ?
what would help deal with all your hurt
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eu3uxy
i think i’ve made the decision to leave....
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help-seeking
1
things just escalated to the Point of no re the tonight and i have a couple options as to where j can go. i found a studio for $350 plus utilities which is probably the max i could pay. i have a full time job for a well established company in may community put i am super concerned about being about to make all my bill...
livinganANTlife
1
0
2
2020-01-26 07:40:55
domesticviolence
<es>things just escalated to the Point of no re the tonight and i have a couple options as to where j can go.<ee> <es>i found a studio for $350 plus utilities which is probably the max i could pay.<ee> <es>i have a full time job for a well established company in may community put i am super concerned about being about...
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why things escalated to the point of no return
How did X make you feel?
the issue getting escalated
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erwnub
Make The Most Of Your Introversion {How to Embrace Being an Introvert}
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chitchat
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EmyG28
1
0
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2020-01-21 16:07:51
selfhelp
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eyw48y
[Petition] Please Help Keep Mom and Kiddo Safe from Abusive Father
1b
chitchat
2
((This is a petition I am sharing for a friend who does not have access to Reddit.)) ⚠️ 3pm PST deadline Please— Help out a fierce and wonderful mama Kesha, and her sweet kiddo, Malachi. TW: child abuse / prison talk . . . . . . . . . . . . Malachi’s dad burned his little baby hands with bo...
TastyDesignStudio
1
0
2
2020-02-04 20:05:49
domesticviolence
((This is a petition I am sharing for a friend who does not have access to Reddit.)) ⚠️ 3pm PST deadline Please— Help out a fierce and wonderful mama Kesha, and her sweet kiddo, Malachi. TW: child abuse / prison talk . . . . . . . . . . . . Malachi’s dad burned his little baby hands with bo...
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ekbvg1
Quitting all drugs that I don’t absolutely need. Any advice?
1a
help-seeking
1
For the past almost 10 years I have been dealing with mental health issues. A lot of these issues stem from things in my life that need addressing. For the last 5 or 6 years I have been self medicating with various drugs and for the past 2-3 years I have been getting high on one thing or another every single day. 5 day...
xaniel_the_legend
1
0
1
2020-01-05 11:26:35
getting_over_it
<es>For the past almost 10 years I have been dealing with mental health issues.<ee> <es>A lot of these issues stem from things in my life that need addressing.<ee> <es>For the last 5 or 6 years I have been self medicating with various drugs and for the past 2-3 years I have been getting high on one thing or another eve...
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how you feel without the drugs
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esomg6
Oh shit
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rant
1
Yeah just broke my desk while playing a game, pretty happy about that. I actually snapped a huge chunk off
PcChillin
1
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2020-01-23 05:23:21
Anger
Yeah just broke my desk while playing a game, pretty happy about that. I actually snapped a huge chunk off
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ek331c
i’m 83 days sober
1a
chitchat
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i cant believe i’ve been sober for this long. i actually cant believe it. i hadn’t even thought about it until now. and i think i feel genuinely proud. for the first time i can remember, i feel happy that i’ve done something. during the last 83 days, i can’t even begin to count how many times i considered getting int...
nwaisou
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2020-01-04 21:49:25
mentalillness
i cant believe i’ve been sober for this long. i actually cant believe it. i hadn’t even thought about it until now. and i think i feel genuinely proud. for the first time i can remember, i feel happy that i’ve done something. during the last 83 days, i can’t even begin to count how many times i considered getting int...
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eimnwx
Me realizing I really have BPD after my OG FP passed away
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rant
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arylea
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0
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2020-01-01 19:42:50
BPD
<es>Me realizing I really have BPD after my OG FP passed away<ee> nan
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
your BPD symptoms
How did X make you feel?
your OG FP passing away
What do you need help with now that X?
you realize you have BPD
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emw7b4
Idk whats happening w me
1a
help-seeking
2
So i dont know where to post this... I dont know whats going on w me anymore sometimes i feel fine like i had progress but then 5 min later i feel sad and stressed and frustrated and i cant breath and start crying it doesnt matter where i am and cant fucking controll it For example i was on the bus omw to my school an...
phreb
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0
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2020-01-10 19:54:26
mentalillness
So i dont know where to post this... <efs>I dont know whats going on w me anymore sometimes i feel fine like i had progress but then 5 min later i feel sad and stressed and frustrated and i cant breath and start crying it doesnt matter where i am and cant fucking controll it<efe> For example i was on the bus omw to my...
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What made you feel X ?
sad and distressed
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emk83l
We have a fucked up family...
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rant
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I know I complained about things earlier, but now I just don't know what to do at this point, and this post is the sadness of me and my mom combined... My mom is from Colombia, one of the first to move to the states, specifically florida..... She has siblings when for the longest time would dish out her money to help ...
littlenerd916
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2020-01-10 02:14:57
getting_over_it
I know I complained about things earlier, but now I just don't know what to do at this point, and this post is the sadness of me and my mom combined... <es>My mom is from Colombia, one of the first to move to the states, specifically Florida.....<ee> <es>She has siblings when for the longest time would dish out her mo...
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how you are feeling
What do you need help with now that X?
you don't have money to cure your problems
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em7eyf
Been adicited to opiates (oxy) consistently for 3 years and want stop. Please help.
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help-seeking
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Hello, I'm a 24 year old college student in Northern CA getting ready to graduate with my BS after next semester and I am addicted to oxycodone. I've never said this out loud before but I believe myself to be a functional opiate addict with no prior drug related addictions or mental health problems. I was intoduced to...
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2020-01-09 09:37:02
OpiatesRecovery
<es>Hello, I'm a 24 year old college student in Northern CA getting ready to graduate with my BS after next semester and I am addicted to oxycodone.<ee> <es>I've never said this out loud before but I believe myself to be a functional opiate addict with no prior drug related addictions or mental health problems.<ee> <es...
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eiiif2
Why just negative posts, enjoy SA too
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pikachfa
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2020-01-01 13:49:56
socialanxiety
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elbdfa
One year today
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One year ago today I was back in rehab. I had checked myself in the day before, but with a BAC of .39 they had to send me to the hospital. That was a dark time for me. I had been to rehab the previous summer and thought it “worked,” but I was back out in no time. The holidays had been one long bender where I was downin...
shermanhelms
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2020-01-07 13:11:45
alcoholicsanonymous
One year ago today I was back in rehab. I had checked myself in the day before, but with a BAC of .39 they had to send me to the hospital. That was a dark time for me. I had been to rehab the previous summer and thought it “worked,” but I was back out in no time. The holidays had been one long bender where I was downin...
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enq1f1
18 months clean!
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I never thought while in active addiction that I would be sitting here typing this. I thought I was going to die an addict. I was using enough of my DOC to kill a horse at the end of my addiction (and I mean that literally). But here I am, living happy, joyous, and free in this new life. I am not the same girl I was be...
thatonecouch
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2020-01-12 17:06:40
OpiatesRecovery
I never thought while in active addiction that I would be sitting here typing this. I thought I was going to die an addict. I was using enough of my DOC to kill a horse at the end of my addiction (and I mean that literally). But here I am, living happy, joyous, and free in this new life. I am not the same girl I was be...
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el8mto
I miss being happy
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adamslife98
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2020-01-07 08:07:22
sad
<es>I miss being happy<ee> nan
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What made you feel X ?
so unhappy
Can you elaborate more on X ?
how you are feeling
What can help you overcome X ?
the feeling of unhappiness
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ej72dn
I was just diagnosed. I have a question.
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So I was diagnosed with bipolar 2 disorder about a year ago and today my psychiatrist told me I have borderline personality disorder. To be fair I do meet alot of the criteria but... I am NEVER in a relationship. I avoid relationships like the plague. The only person I have ever been attached to is my mother and I am s...
randomcacti
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2020-01-03 00:23:27
BPD
<es>So I was diagnosed with bipolar 2 disorder about a year ago and today my psychiatrist told me I have borderline personality disorder. To be fair I do meet alot of the criteria but... I am NEVER in a relationship.<ee> <es>I avoid relationships like the plague.<ee> <es>The only person I have ever been attached to is ...
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eisvyb
My very first new year's resolution is to stop interrupting people.
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Interrupting people is one of my absolute least favorite ADHD side effects. I realized I do it constantly and started noticing people's visible negative reactions. I've never made a new year's resolution before, but this year my resolution is to be more patient in conversations and actively try to interrupt people less...
KimbyPie
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2020-01-02 03:52:52
ADHD
<es>Interrupting people is one of my absolute least favorite ADHD side effects.<ee> <es>I realized I do it constantly and started noticing people's visible negative reactions.<ee> <rs>I've never made a new year's resolution before, but this year my resolution is to be more patient in conversations and actively try to i...
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your ADHD
How did X make you feel?
interrupting people make you feel
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eis66q
hello again
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i haven’t cut in a few months, and haven’t been to this sub in a while, and then today i went to go cut because i felt horrible after such a bad day. i then realized i didn’t bring my razor to my grandmothers house and i am now panicking. fun times.
crystalblue06
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2020-01-02 02:53:17
selfharm
<es>i haven’t cut in a few months, and haven’t been to this sub in a while.<ee> <efs>then today i went to go cut because i felt horrible after such a bad day.<efe> <es>i then realized i didn’t bring my razor to my grandmothers house and i am now panicking.<ee> fun times.
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what made the day bad
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you feel horrible after a bad day
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eiwyi7
calm harm- a self harm prevention app!
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hey guys, someone recently told me about this app called calm harm which helps prevent the urge to self harm. i’ve found it very useful as it’s got heaps of suggestion and helpful ways to feel a little bit better. also just saying, it is not a ‘cure’ and if you need medical or professional advice please seek it. it is ...
lauracasiglia
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2020-01-02 11:09:28
selfharm
hey guys, someone recently told me about this app called calm harm which helps prevent the urge to self harm. i’ve found it very useful as it’s got heaps of suggestion and helpful ways to feel a little bit better. also just saying, it is not a ‘cure’ and if you need medical or professional advice please seek it. it is ...
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eit80h
Does this make me a freak?
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I wrote ‘Fuck You’ all on my body with my own blood and smeared blood everywhere, I thought it was quite funny at first but now I’m starting to question my own sanity or if I’m just a complete freak. Also the cuts haven’t stopped bleeding for an hour now that’s just great
todd12344
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2020-01-02 04:22:35
selfharm
<es>I wrote ‘Fuck You’ all on my body with my own blood and smeared blood everywhere, I thought it was quite funny at first.<ee> <efs>but now I’m starting to question my own sanity or if I’m just a complete freak.<efe> <es>Also the cuts haven’t stopped bleeding for an hour now that’s just great<ee>
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why you harmed yourself
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the bleeding hasn't stopped
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ejuqaa
What I want to do to myself (Depression)
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MikeW1041993
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2020-01-04 09:44:33
sad
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ezv5yh
Am i the only one who HATES mandated reporters?
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survey
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Right after it happened i was more than a fucking mess i couldnt think i couldnt eat i could barely walk, so i talked to my school counselor and i before i told her, i told her i dont want anything reported, so i asked her if i could just give her a “hypothetical story of something that happened but NOT ABOUT ME” becau...
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2020-02-06 16:56:49
rapecounseling
<es>Right after it happened i was more than a fucking mess i couldnt think i couldnt eat i could barely walk, so i talked to my school counselor and i before i told her, i told her i dont want anything reported, so i asked her if i could just give her a “hypothetical story of something that happened but NOT ABOUT ME” b...
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what would help you go through this situation
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eib31o
New year
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I don't have high hopes for this year but to all of you thank you and a happy new year.
barnstormer6
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2020-01-01 00:06:28
selfharm
I don't have high hopes for this year but to all of you thank you and a happy new year.
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einyxc
A tale of two tinder dates
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Recently, I went on a date with someone and it was very apparent that we didn’t share many values or interests and that I wouldn’t enjoy their company on any type of long term regular basis. So naturally, I went back to their place and had sex with them. I left before sunrise because I didn’t even want to sleep next to...
mirrorhugs
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2020-01-01 21:19:48
BPD
<es>Recently, I went on a date with someone and it was very apparent that we didn’t share many values or interests and that I wouldn’t enjoy their company on any type of long term regular basis.<ee> <es>So naturally, I went back to their place and had sex with them.<ee> <es>I left before sunrise because I didn’t even w...
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you made panic exits after the two dates
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fhtz9i
I found a playlist that is currently helping me deal with an emotional flashback
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[healing music](https://open.spotify.com/track/4oIJos3WoRVBrn6Q2x0QH5?si=1a27OHELTpiJdXiGDrqLBQ)
redditsISproblematic
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2020-03-13 04:22:15
getting_over_it
[healing music](https://open.spotify.com/track/4oIJos3WoRVBrn6Q2x0QH5?si=1a27OHELTpiJdXiGDrqLBQ)
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ejy483
I am Powerless over Alcohol
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I have finally surrendered to the idea that I am powerless over alcohol. I didn't really believe that, probably throughout my entire duration of sobriety (almost a year). This sounds crazy, but the easiest part for me has been not drinking. Dealing with the WHY's and HOW's of how I got to this point of alcoholism, is t...
coffeeandtea0909
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2020-01-04 15:43:45
alcoholicsanonymous
<es>I have finally surrendered to the idea that I am powerless over alcohol.<ee> <es>I didn't really believe that, probably throughout my entire duration of sobriety (almost a year).<ee> <es>This sounds crazy, but the easiest part for me has been not drinking.<ee> <efs>Dealing with the WHY's and HOW's of how I got to t...
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eln1sw
Is it wrong for me to help others for selfish interest?
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Whenever I hear someone ask for help, I offer with genuine interest, but at the same time I only do it to hear praise for me and get a confidence/ego boost to make myself feel better. Is it wrong for me to do this?
SableyeFan
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2020-01-08 03:39:56
selfhelp
<rs>Is it wrong for me to help others for selfish interest?<re> <es>Whenever I hear someone ask for help, I offer with genuine interest, but at the same time I only do it to hear praise for me and get a confidence/ego boost to make myself feel better.<ee> <rs>Is it wrong for me to do this?<re>
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helping others to get a ego boost
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eui8q4
Emotional detachment?
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It’s so incredibly hard to share my feelings with anyone. When I was in middle school, something really bad happened to me (in which I don’t feel comfortable sharing) and my mom found out, to which she negatively replied “I just want you to be a normal girl,” and then ignored the issue. This absolutely gutted my emot...
4521fourfivetwoone
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2020-01-27 03:41:25
selfhelp
<es>It’s so incredibly hard to share my feelings with anyone.<ee> <es>When I was in middle school, something really bad happened to me (in which I don’t feel comfortable sharing) and my mom found out, to which she negatively replied “I just want you to be a normal girl,” and then ignored the issue.<ee> <efs>This abso...
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you find it hard sharing your feelings with anyone
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eiaujm
I was trying to cheer myself up today but unfortunately was reminded why I want to off myself so badly
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I was trying to cheer myself up today since I couldn’t go out today Unfortunately a call from my partner reminded me that I never fit in with any social group Life is to complex and I just want to die, I’m tired of compromising my moral codes while feeling like I’m a bad person for even having them in the first place. ...
Lazy-Jury
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2019-12-31 23:47:46
depression
I was trying to cheer myself up today since I couldn’t go out today <es>Unfortunately a call from my partner reminded me that I never fit in with any social group<ee> <efs>Life is to complex and I just want to die, I’m tired of compromising my moral codes while feeling like I’m a bad person for even having them in the ...
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why you think you don't fit with any social group
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How do you move on?
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About a month ago, I (M) was sexually assaulted by my best friend (F) I see her every day and I just cant get it out of my head. Even though it wasnt rape I still have had 3 panic attacks at random times. So how are you supposed to move on when you see them everyday? How are you supposed to go away from them if they ...
ohyespapasmerf
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2020-02-11 08:43:53
rapecounseling
<es>About a month ago, I (M) was sexually assaulted by my best friend (F) <ee> <es>I see her every day and I just cant get it out of my head.<ee> <es>Even though it wasnt rape I still have had 3 panic attacks at random times.<ee> <rs>So how are you supposed to move on when you see them everyday?<re> <rs>How are you su...
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your best friend assaulting you
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en0c68
Put recovery first, and watch all your problems melt away. Prove me wrong.
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Whenever something prioritizes over my recovery I lose.
mufhn-man
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2020-01-11 01:01:22
alcoholicsanonymous
Whenever something prioritizes over my recovery I lose.
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eiq5xw
I must not stay up too late
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Don't know about you guys, but I find I'm most vulnerable at night, like my brain is more unhinged and my thoughts become more volatile and unpredictable. I made the mistake of staying up too late last night. I thought 'well it's new year's eve, so it's okay to stay up later', so I stayed up til 2:30am browsing on my p...
GoopyDumpy
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2020-01-02 00:12:23
BPD
<es>Don't know about you guys, but I find I'm most vulnerable at night, like my brain is more unhinged and my thoughts become more volatile and unpredictable.<ee> <es>I made the mistake of staying up too late last night.<ee> <es>I thought 'well it's new year's eve, so it's okay to stay up later', so I stayed up til 2:3...
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you feel afraid and vulnerable at night
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epanvn
My friends are treating me differently and I’m scared they hate me..
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For the past 5 months my friends have been acting more cold to me.. I don’t get it, I’m so scared of them leaving me. I go to a really small school and there’s only 13 kids in my grade and at lunch we eat with 9th grade who only has 15 kids so their isn’t many of us in the room. In beginning of he year my sister join...
ewwhoisluke
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2020-01-15 23:43:23
mentalillness
<efs><es>For the past 5 months my friends have been acting more cold to me.. I don’t get it, I’m so scared of them leaving me. <ee><efe> I go to a really small school and there’s only 13 kids in my grade and at lunch we eat with 9th grade who only has 15 kids so their isn’t many of us in the room. In beginning of he y...
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the behaviour of your friends
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epi4xg
Does affection deprivation as child lead to over-excitedness as an adult?
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I have a problem, I'm a 22 year old man and I get an uncontrollable erection whenever a girl touches my arms, holds my hand, lays/sits on me or even stares deeply into my eyes in conversion. Initially, I thought it just happened because of puberty but it has not remotely slowed down and it is starting to affect my lif...
lolheheexdee2034
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2020-01-16 11:31:45
selfhelp
<es>I have a problem, I'm a 22 year old man and I get an uncontrollable erection whenever a girl touches my arms, holds my hand, lays/sits on me or even stares deeply into my eyes in conversion.<ee> <es>Initially, I thought it just happened because of puberty but it has not remotely slowed down and it is starting to a...
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eiabo7
Does anyone else have chest pain, not just during attacks, but generally in times of stress?
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My chest feels tight and pains when I'm anxious sometimes. Does it happen to you guys? How do you deal with it?
kausarahmad
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2019-12-31 23:05:45
Anxiety
<efs>My chest feels tight and pains when I'm anxious sometimes.<efe> <rs>Does it happen to you guys?<re> <rs>How do you deal with it?<re>
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what makes you anxious
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eomyy5
Videogames
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God why the fuck did you create a human being like me who can't stop getting addicted to anything be like?? What am i supposed to do?Just jerk around while you are watching and laughing?Cut it already and give me some peace i haven't enjoyed for 8 years
EdenJ13
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2020-01-14 15:47:53
addiction
<es>God why the fuck did you create a human being like me who can't stop getting addicted to anything be like??<ee> <es>What am i supposed to do?<ee>Just jerk around while you are watching and laughing?<es>Cut it already and give me some peace i haven't enjoyed for 8 years<ee>
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the addictions
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you are unable to control you addictions
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ei8dmf
I feel guilty/embarrassed about trying to quit my job in order to focus on me while going through severe depression.
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This disease is a real one. I took a really good job at a well established company in a new city/state a few months ago after working from home and side-jobs for over a year. I burned out SO quickly at this job. It pays well, it's a huge office, but I don't do well with the 9-5 grind. The commute drains and stresses ...
anonymouschic
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2019-12-31 20:29:56
socialanxiety
<es>This disease is a real one.<ee> <es>I took a really good job at a well established company in a new city/state a few months ago after working from home and side-jobs for over a year.<ee> <es>I burned out SO quickly at this job.<ee> <es>It pays well, it's a huge office, but I don't do well with the 9-5 grind.<ee> ...
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erx4rb
Help
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I'm not even sure where to start, and this is going to be so long but i need to let this out and get advice from people who dont know me personally, and have maybe been through something similar. But it all started off when I got too drunk to drive and backed into a dumpster one night and then the girls I was with call...
hotpockeys
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2020-01-21 16:37:50
domesticviolence
<rs>I'm not even sure where to start, and this is going to be so long but i need to let this out and get advice from people who dont know me personally, and have maybe been through something similar.<re> <es>But it all started off when I got too drunk to drive and backed into a dumpster one night and then the girls I w...
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I need help
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I have a lot of pent up anger from the last few years because of circumstances in life and it’s constantly building and building. I get super angry over everything on the inside, sometimes just if someone talks to me, but I have a good head on my shoulders and control it perfectly and don’t lash out. I feel as if letti...
legitdyn
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2020-02-05 08:45:52
Anger
<es>I have a lot of pent up anger from the last few years because of circumstances in life and it’s constantly building and building.<ee> <es>I get super angry over everything on the inside, sometimes just if someone talks to me, but I have a good head on my shoulders and control it perfectly and don’t lash out.<ee> <e...
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eoa7m7
An Intense, Vivid Relapse Dream
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I have relapse dreams on occasion but nothing like this in two and a half years of sobriety. It wasn't just that I dreamed of having a drink — that's happened before. It's that I also dreamed the whole fallout. I planned (in my dream) what to say to my sponsor, thought about who else in my AA community I would ask to s...
nycscribe
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2020-01-13 20:57:19
alcoholicsanonymous
<es>I have relapse dreams on occasion but nothing like this in two and a half years of sobriety.<ee> <es>It wasn't just that I dreamed of having a drink — that's happened before.<ee> <es>It's that I also dreamed the whole fallout.<ee> <es>I planned (in my dream) what to say to my sponsor, thought about who else in my A...
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how the relapse dreams make you feel
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you are having relapse dreams
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eigzov
Driving anxiety
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I was in a car accident roughly 5-6 months ago. I had only just gotten my license about a month before that, even though I was already 21. It shook my confidence in driving to the core. I've gotten better at driving, but I usually only go 5 minutes up the road because that's where I used to work. However, if I have to ...
SunshineMassacre
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2020-01-01 10:26:31
Anxiety
<es>I was in a car accident roughly 5-6 months ago.<ee> <es>I had only just gotten my license about a month before that, even though I was already 21.<ee> <efs>It shook my confidence in driving to the core.<efe> I've gotten better at driving, but I usually only go 5 minutes up the road because that's where I used to wo...
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what would help you control you panic attack
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restricted/blunt affect
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I forgot all about it until a couple of weeks ago when the person I've been trying to get into a relationship with told me the reason we kept arguing was because I talk in a monotone a lot and do not express many emotions on my face. I had to explain to them that i have restricted affect and it just means I don't expre...
pyrofish9
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2020-01-06 11:36:06
ptsd
<es>I forgot all about it until a couple of weeks ago when the person I've been trying to get into a relationship with told me the reason we kept arguing was because I talk in a monotone a lot and do not express many emotions on my face.<ee> <es>I had to explain to them that i have restricted affect and it just means I...
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cutting), and i dont know what to do.
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A few years ago i made a promise to myself to not to cut myself whatever happens because i had a fear i might go wrong and accidentally puncture my nerves or the situation might get even worse. Whenever i make a mistake or fuck up my mother would point out of how i inhinerited my father's trait of being a smart; but w...
ZanSquintox
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2020-01-01 15:27:59
selfharm
<es>A few years ago i made a promise to myself to not to cut myself whatever happens because i had a fear i might go wrong and accidentally puncture my nerves or the situation might get even worse.<ee> <es>Whenever i make a mistake or fuck up my mother would point out of how i inhinerited my father's trait of being a ...
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your mother's taunts
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ejlxz0
Risky behaviors, anyone?
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Has anyone engaged themselves in risky behaviors they wouldn't normally do themselves as a result of their depression? I remember watching something on tv a while back where this woman apparently suffered some sort of depression and was married, but found herself constantly cheating on her husband. Now I cannot recoll...
Hav0c_wreack3r
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2020-01-03 21:19:11
mentalillness
Has anyone engaged themselves in risky behaviors they wouldn't normally do themselves as a result of their depression? I remember watching something on tv a while back where this woman apparently suffered some sort of depression and was married, but found herself constantly cheating on her husband. Now I cannot recoll...
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ejgkbt
New to the community
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Hey everyone, I've been reading through the posts and decided I wanted to join considering everyone seems to be very understanding of each other. I cut my wrists for the first time yesterday (nothing serious, there was barely any blood), but it felt kind of, comforting, as weird as it may sound. I'll probably attempt i...
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2020-01-03 15:05:09
selfharm
<es>Hey everyone, I've been reading through the posts and decided I wanted to join considering everyone seems to be very understanding of each other.<ee> <es>I cut my wrists for the first time yesterday (nothing serious, there was barely any blood).<ee> <efs>but it felt kind of, comforting, as weird as it may sound.<ef...
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engfaz
Memories coming back
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help-seeking
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I was raped in college after a night out and I have always been able to process it fairly well. Lately the memories are coming back and I’m getting a different look at things since it’s been a handful of years. I don’t even know where to start. Very few people know I was raped, most just know I was assaulted but not ...
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2020-01-12 01:00:08
rapecounseling
<es>I was raped in college after a night out and I have always been able to process it fairly well. <ee> <es>Lately the memories are coming back and I’m getting a different look at things since it’s been a handful of years.<ee> <es>I don’t even know where to start.<ee> <es>Very few people know I was raped, most just k...
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what would help you get therapy
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eivx7x
She gave up before I could even consider it
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rant
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For a little context I'm a 16 year old high schooler. This entire post is just gonna sound like teen angst but whatever So sometime last year some girl transfered to our school and I talked to her a little bit. We were talking in insta dms and she mentioned one of her friends from her old school and told me I shou...
Iforgotmydad
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2020-01-02 09:02:47
sad
<es>For a little context I'm a 16 year old high schooler. <ee> This entire post is just gonna sound like teen angst but whatever <es>So sometime last year some girl transfered to our school and I talked to her a little bit.<ee> <es>We were talking in insta dms and she mentioned one of her friends from her old schoo...
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what would help you deal with all the hurt
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ep4pna
Day 5, no pills.
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I like to dose compulsively. I told myself it wasn't a problem for so long because I didn't take an obscene dose (10mg oxycodone, 15mg hydrocodone, and 20-40mg Adderall, 60-90mg Vyvanse) &amp; this has been going on for years with no real change in dosage. My problem has always been not wanting to lose it, or if I ...
ceb255
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2020-01-15 16:47:47
OpiatesRecovery
<es>I like to dose compulsively. <ee> <es>I told myself it wasn't a problem for so long because I didn't take an obscene dose (10mg oxycodone, 15mg hydrocodone, and 20-40mg Adderall, 60-90mg Vyvanse) &amp; this has been going on for years with no real change in dosage. <ee> <es>My problem has always been not wanting ...
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the withdrawls
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you like to dose compulsively
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fmxb1o
The virus lockdown ruined my suicide plan
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I was planning on buying some pills and alcohol, and I still could, but we’re not supposed to leave our houses unless we have to.
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2020-03-22 09:34:53
getting_over_it
<es>The virus lockdown ruined my suicide plan<ee> <es>I was planning on buying some pills and alcohol, and I still could, but we’re not supposed to leave our houses unless we have to.<ee>
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why you were having suicidal thoughts
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the suicidal thoughts
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you are having suicidal thoughts
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ej4cy0
Helping family friend and her baby get away from her abusive boyfriend. What can I expect?
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This feels a bit weird to type... partly not sure this is even the right place but mostly because honestly I feel very disconnected from what is going on, and everything I've heard is hearsay... as in I haven't seen or confirmed anything myself. Most of what I hear came from my mom and the family friend's mother. I'm n...
gonnaBEaTHROWaway777
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2020-01-02 21:10:41
domesticviolence
<efs>This feels a bit weird to type... partly not sure this is even the right place but mostly because honestly I feel very disconnected from what is going on, and everything I've heard is hearsay... as in I haven't seen or confirmed anything myself.<efe> <es>Most of what I hear came from my mom and the family friend's...
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how you feel about the family friend's condition
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eiq5q7
Bad urges and impulse problems.
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Cutting helps me calm down and relax, usually I do it before I go to bed, it's really hard to sleep now unless I cut. Sometimes I cut when I'm having an anxiety attack or when I'm having a breakdown. Usually when I'm breaking down or having a panic attack I get really strong, crazy urges. I always want to cut super dee...
Im-In-Your-Stairs
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2020-01-02 00:11:55
selfharm
<efs>Cutting helps me calm down and relax, usually I do it before I go to bed, it's really hard to sleep now unless I cut.<efe> <es>Sometimes I cut when I'm having an anxiety attack or when I'm having a breakdown.<ee> <es>Usually when I'm breaking down or having a panic attack I get really strong, crazy urges.<ee> <es>...
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ejn9ay
I feel like I will feel this way forever
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I am 20 years old and I still live with my parents. I have nothing in my life that gives me purpose. I dropped out of high school from anxiety and bullies, which is why I never got to go to university like I have always dreamed of. I have no job because of my panic attacks and social anxiety. Never had a boyfriend. I h...
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2020-01-03 22:52:57
selfhelp
I am 20 years old and I still live with my parents. <es>I have nothing in my life that gives me purpose.<ee> <es>I dropped out of high school from anxiety and bullies, which is why I never got to go to university like I have always dreamed of.<ee> <es>I have no job because of my panic attacks and social anxiety.<ee> <e...
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wanting to change and dealing with your anxiety related issues
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eq51lw
withdrawals unplanned
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Ive been withdrawaling/detoxing/tapering five days now (5 years on tramacet or tramadol with dosing varying but more lately due to chronic pain. Clonazepam for anxiety and oxy 5mg for pain not as many as the trams though ) Withdrawals in regards to trams. With the mindset to really get my shit together. My negative th...
SeaMap5
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2020-01-17 19:24:11
OpiatesRecovery
<es>Ive been withdrawaling/detoxing/tapering five days now (5 years on tramacet or tramadol with dosing varying but more lately due to chronic pain.<ee> <es>Clonazepam for anxiety and oxy 5mg for pain not as many as the trams though ).<ee> <es>Withdrawals in regards to trams. <ee> <es>With the mindset to really get my ...
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the tapering
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ekwifn
Trying to join a sports team
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Hi guys so I was wondering if anyone can give me some advice. So there is a american football team me that is going to start doing trails for all skill ranges and I really want to push myself to go but I just can’t get certain thoughts out my head. The main one is that I wouldn’t be welcome at these trails. I know lo...
DiaOneStump
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2020-01-06 16:39:09
socialanxiety
<rs>Hi guys so I was wondering if anyone can give me some advice.<re> <es>So there is a american football team me that is going to start doing trails for all skill ranges and I really want to push myself to go but I just can’t get certain thoughts out my head. <ee> <es>The main one is that I wouldn’t be welcome at the...
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why you feel not welcome
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ejd0ny
Is it possible to have a healthy casual friendship with "ex" fp?
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It was more one sided romantic relationship, I crushed on him quite for some time. Wasn't talking to him a month after realising he doesn't see me as his potential girlfriend. Back then he was influencing me quite a bit and I loved the freedom of not talking to him. But now we're back to talking, and only after two day...
sulkystorm
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2020-01-03 09:13:50
BPD
<rs> Is it possible to have a healthy casual friendship with "ex" fp? <re> <es>It was more one sided romantic relationship, I crushed on him quite for some time.<ee> <es>Wasn't talking to him a month after realising he doesn't see me as his potential girlfriend.<ee> <es>Back then he was influencing me quite a bit and I...
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el3pac
Is the risk worth it?
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I have been drinking heavily for the past 10 years. Throughout this time I have put the bottle down on a few occasions, my longest being 111 days. I've made up my mind I'm going to quit cold turkey but am now having second thoughts. I honestly dont want to drink a drop tonight and have been mentally preparing and know...
adviceneeded-thanks
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2020-01-07 01:08:07
alcoholicsanonymous
<es>I have been drinking heavily for the past 10 years.<ee> <es>Throughout this time I have put the bottle down on a few occasions, my longest being 111 days.<ee <es>I've made up my mind I'm going to quit cold turkey but am now having second thoughts.<ee> <es>I honestly dont want to drink a drop tonight and have been m...
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f1ugw8
I hit myself about 30 times last night hard in the skull
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I've done this before and the headache goes away, I hit myself so hard though I have bruises of the pattern of the beanie I was wearing all over my forehead and top of my head. I got a REALLY excruciation pain in my head about an hour ago. I have never felt a pain that badly in my head, it overcame my entire head I a...
Sweaty-Freedom
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2020-02-10 18:27:05
Anger
I've done this before and the headache goes away, I hit myself so hard though I have bruises of the pattern of the beanie I was wearing all over my forehead and top of my head. I got a REALLY excruciation pain in my head about an hour ago. I have never felt a pain that badly in my head, it overcame my entire head I a...
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the pain in the head
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ejy6sx
I'm uncrushable
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Because no one would have a crush on me 😎😎😎
morningstaraldan
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2020-01-04 15:49:43
sad
Because no one would have a crush on me 😎😎😎
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f35wtd
How can I get over my fear of going to the gynecologist?
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I was raped when I was 6 or 7. I am 18 now, and I have only been to the gynecologist one time, it was to get birth control. I really hated being there. There was no pelvic exam or anything, and the doctor didn’t look at my vagina or touch it, but I hated being in the presence of a man in that context. Currently I have ...
ilickedthesaltlamp
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2020-02-13 06:43:09
rapecounseling
<es>I was raped when I was 6 or 7.<ee> <es>I am 18 now, and I have only been to the gynecologist one time, it was to get birth control.<ee> <es>I really hated being there.<ee> <es>There was no pelvic exam or anything, and the doctor didn’t look at my vagina or touch it, but I hated being in the presence of a man in tha...
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eijtl5
I overcame a long time issue last night....
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Hello Reddit! First time posting and not sure how this works... but here we go. In the spirit of the New Year and trying to get my own shit together, this first post is about the fear I had to face last night on New Years Eve. Here is some background to get started: About 5 or 6 years ago or so, I had gotten out of...
Ev1lHag
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2020-01-01 16:01:30
Anxiety
Hello Reddit! First time posting and not sure how this works... but here we go. In the spirit of the New Year and trying to get my own shit together, this first post is about the fear I had to face last night on New Years Eve. Here is some background to get started: About 5 or 6 years ago or so, I had gotten out of...
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er3ic0
Do violent abusive men ever truly change?
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I'm looking for answers from people who have been in a domestic abuse situation or more specifically from men who have issues with anger and have been violent towards women (especially since this is all anonymous) I have been with my Partner for about a year and a half. Yesterday I received a message from his ex infor...
CantSayItInPublic
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2020-01-19 22:30:29
domesticviolence
<rs>I'm looking for answers from people who have been in a domestic abuse situation or more specifically from men who have issues with anger and have been violent towards women (especially since this is all anonymous)<re> <es>I have been with my Partner for about a year and a half.<ee> <es>Yesterday I received a messa...
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how you feel about your partner's past
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ej3gtw
Coming up on 4 days sober.
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If this gets annoying I apologise. I am trying to check in and just vent/share my addiction and experiences regularly because I still don't know if I'll manage to get myself to a meeting. Once I make it through the weekend I feel like I'll try to post once a week until I have a month behind me. I managed to get up at ...
IDefNeedHelpz
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2020-01-02 20:09:56
alcoholicsanonymous
<es>Coming up on 4 days sober.<ee> If this gets annoying I apologise. <es>I am trying to check in and just vent/share my addiction and experiences regularly because I still don't know if I'll manage to get myself to a meeting.<ee> Once I make it through the weekend I feel like I'll try to post once a week until I have ...
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things are not good in your relationship
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fco67n
I feel mentally crippled by my anxiety
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I know that this is a pretty common feeling for people with depression and anxiety disorders. I've just been feeling really overwhelmed by it lately, and coming to terms with it has been one of my biggest hurdles with learning to cope. The weird thing is that all of this hit me after I've been making progress with it....
ElusiveGooser
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2020-03-03 03:06:36
getting_over_it
<es>I know that this is a pretty common feeling for people with depression and anxiety disorders.<ee> <efs>I've just been feeling really overwhelmed by it lately, and coming to terms with it has been one of my biggest hurdles with learning to cope.<efe> <es>The weird thing is that all of this hit me after I've been ma...
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enjq1x
Cant Remember Parts of Trauma?
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Hi im back again, another question. Its also gonna end up being another vent and ramble but any advice helps. I have ptsd from repeated intense instances of trauma in my childhood, and I’ve already talked to my dr about how my memory about it was affected because of how many times it happened. However there is one sp...
dumbbastardtwink
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2020-01-12 05:52:03
ptsd
Hi im back again, another question. <rs>Its also gonna end up being another vent and ramble but any advice helps.<re> <es>I have ptsd from repeated intense instances of trauma in my childhood, and I’ve already talked to my dr about how my memory about it was affected because of how many times it happened.<ee> <es>How...
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how the repeated flashbacks make you feel
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eiro64
Sick of it
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rant
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I love her but she can't get over her shitty ex so at this point I'm just being led on.
wimall
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2020-01-02 02:13:08
sad
<es>I love her but she can't get over her shitty ex so at this point I'm just being led on.<ee>
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your relationship
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being led on
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you are sick of being led on
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eic3r1
I don’t even know what to call this and the fact that I was drunk doesn’t help me define what happened. Drugged? Maybe. Raped? I think so. I feel gross.
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I was travelling in Costa Rica and went out with people from the hostel I was staying at. We all were drinking and went out to this local bar in the town. I remember going inside the bar and dancing with 2 local women and taking a shot with them. We went back outside and were all talking in a group of locals &amp; trav...
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2020-01-01 01:31:32
rapecounseling
<es>I was travelling in Costa Rica and went out with people from the hostel I was staying at.<ee> <es>We all were drinking and went out to this local bar in the town.<ee> <es>I remember going inside the bar and dancing with 2 local women and taking a shot with them.<ee> <es>We went back outside and were all talking in ...
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em3w8v
A new year’s turn for the worst
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I just need to get all of this out. My wife and I have been married a year and a half, together for 4.5. Early on in our relationship, a lot got in the way. Our mental health, our families, and my friends. We had many terrible “no coming back from this” fights. Early on they were frequent, as often as once a week. Ove...
shinobi727
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2020-01-09 03:27:44
selfhelp
<rs>I just need to get all of this out.<re> <es>My wife and I have been married a year and a half, together for 4.5.<ee> <es>Early on in our relationship, a lot got in the way.<ee> <es>Our mental health, our families, and my friends.<ee> <es>We had many terrible “no coming back from this” fights.<ee> <es>Early on they...
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eiiz4z
23 yo Newly Diagnosed - need some tips on coping strategies
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Title as above, psychiatrist interviewed me and mum, looked through school report cards, and say that the picture is consistent with ADHD, although mild since it remained undetected until now. While I've looked up the internet for some coping strategies, I would also like to ask users here what are some practical tips ...
berryborealis
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2020-01-01 14:40:43
ADHD
<rs>23 yo Newly Diagnosed - need some tips on coping strategies<re> <es>Title as above, psychiatrist interviewed me and mum, looked through school report cards, and say that the picture is consistent with ADHD, although mild since it remained undetected until now.<ee> <rs>While I've looked up the internet for some copi...
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em5bsn
Emotional as fuck
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I should probably mention that I did have my first panic attack two days ago and I got so scared that I called paramedics and went to the ER. I'm trying to figure out though why I'm so emotional though. So I stopped doing drugs 2 weeks ago. I stopped drinking 4 days ago because I relapsed. Anyways, I've noticed that...
wir3dshut
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2020-01-09 05:38:15
addiction
<es>I should probably mention that I did have my first panic attack two days ago and I got so scared that I called paramedics and went to the ER.<ee> <es>I'm trying to figure out though why I'm so emotional though.<ee> <es>So I stopped doing drugs 2 weeks ago.<ee> <es>I stopped drinking 4 days ago because I relapsed...
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stopping drugs makes you emotional
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eib3yr
parents suck
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I’m very easily agitated because if my depression, which doesn’t really affect me except for with my family. I’m not annoyed at my friends, they could do almost everything, but if my family even looks at me the wrong way it sets me off. My usual reaction is to just go to my room, to avoid conflict (because my parents a...
suckmitosis_
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2020-01-01 00:08:24
depression
<es>I’m very easily agitated because if my depression, which doesn’t really affect me except for with my family.<ee> <es>I’m not annoyed at my friends, they could do almost everything, but if my family even looks at me the wrong way it sets me off.<ee> <efs>My usual reaction is to just go to my room, to avoid conflict ...
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how your family makes you feel
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you feel so agitated and annoyed by your family
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eoue7u
Scared
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I don't know what to do. I have to be strong and I have to be good for my family. But I'm not good enough for this. My family needs me to be good. My sister just had a baby. I finally have a girlfriend that loves me. I'm 23 and haven't had a single girlfriend since I was 13. I get so drunk so often. I don't know what t...
Chadamis2
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2020-01-15 00:30:17
alcoholicsanonymous
<efs>Scared <efe> <es>I don't know what to do.<ee> <es>I have to be strong and I have to be good for my family.<ee> <es>But I'm not good enough for this.<ee> <rs>My family needs me to be good.<re> <es>My sister just had a baby.<ee> <es>I finally have a girlfriend that loves me.<ee> <es>I'm 23 and haven't had a single g...
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eo1auj
Daily reflections
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13 January IT DOESN'T HAPPEN OVERNIGHT We are not cured of alcoholism. What we really have is a daily reprieve contingent on the maintenance of our spiritual condition. — ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 85 The most common alcoholic fantasy seems to be: "If I just don't drink, everything will be all right." Once the fog c...
titclamp
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2020-01-13 08:11:34
alcoholicsanonymous
13 January IT DOESN'T HAPPEN OVERNIGHT We are not cured of alcoholism. What we really have is a daily reprieve contingent on the maintenance of our spiritual condition. — ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 85 The most common alcoholic fantasy seems to be: "If I just don't drink, everything will be all right." Once the fog c...
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eil8yd
I want friends so bad but people don’t like me..
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I want people to hangout with and friends so bad. I’ve never been a popular person. I have bpd and my personality is just awful. I try to mask who I am and act likable but it never works. I wish I were someone, anyone else. :(
peanutbutterbananaaa
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2020-01-01 17:56:14
socialanxiety
<rs>I want people to hangout with and friends so bad.<re> I’ve never been a popular person. <es>I have bpd and my personality is just awful.<ee> <efs>I try to mask who I am and act likable but it never works.<efe> <rs>I wish I were someone, anyone else.<re> :(
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eil0vj
I just feel like giving up.
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I have gone through multiple assaults so I thought I had enough experience to avoid this. Last night I was invited downtown for New Years Eve. I was pretty drunk but not heavily. My friend left. I didn't call an Uber b/c the rate was around $100. So I waited until it went down. This guy I made friends with who I thou...
TreeFucker5000
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2020-01-01 17:38:59
rapecounseling
I have gone through multiple assaults so I thought I had enough experience to avoid this. <es>Last night I was invited downtown for New Years Eve.<ee> <es>I was pretty drunk but not heavily.<ee> <es>My friend left.<ee> <es>I didn't call an Uber b/c the rate was around $100.<ee> <es>So I waited until it went down.<ee>...
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you feel alone and disgusted by the guy's actions
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f1gt78
Lost control and hit myself again and I feel so ashamed
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I'm so tired of being unable to control myself when I'm angry. I lost it at my mother twice in the past two days, screaming at her and hitting myself so much that I left bruises on my face. I told her "I'm seriously past my limit and feel like screaming and hitting myself" before it happened to try to make her unders...
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2020-02-09 23:01:49
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<efs>I'm so tired of being unable to control myself when I'm angry. <efe> <es>I lost it at my mother twice in the past two days, screaming at her and hitting myself so much that I left bruises on my face.<ee> <es>I told her "I'm seriously past my limit and feel like screaming and hitting myself" before it happened to ...
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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what would help control your emotions
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eiupna
Going out to a club this Friday - challenging my anxiety head on
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Hi everyone! I’ve always gone on reddit forums about anxiety to feel less alone and I’ve finally made an account to share my story and join the community. My anxiety and panic started 2 years ago, I suddenly got really sick with a virus and landed in the hospital. My life changed forever from that day on. I started...
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2020-01-02 06:41:44
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Hi everyone! I’ve always gone on reddit forums about anxiety to feel less alone and I’ve finally made an account to share my story and join the community. <es>My anxiety and panic started 2 years ago, I suddenly got really sick with a virus and landed in the hospital.<ee> <es>My life changed forever from that day o...
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Most hardhitting thing I’ve heard re. BPD: “We may not know who we are without someone else’s influence.”
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I’ve honestly never heard anything to describe myself better. And it’s ironic that the one thing that describes me the best comes from someone else LOL.
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2020-01-02 19:53:11
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I’ve honestly never heard anything to describe myself better. And it’s ironic that the one thing that describes me the best comes from someone else LOL.
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