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After 2 decades in therapy and on meds I’ve decided to give up trying any longer. My hope for a better future is 100% gone. Any glimmer of motivation or belief that circumstances will improve is gone. I don’t need any encouragement. Just wanted to speak my truth.
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**I am 19 years old and it seems I am in a process of "late adolescence"** According to my psychologist, Aspergers tend to have a different adolescence process than neurotypicals, which is usually worse. Apparently, the body and hormonal changes occur in the same way as the rest, but the difference is that Aspergers h...
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I've been struggling to brush my teeth for so long as I never thought I was gonna make it past 19 and now I'm nearly 20 and I have braces that need to come off too and theyve been starting to hurt so bad but I'm scared since my bill isn't paid off and my teeth and braces are in such bad condition and I don't know what ...
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Hello, I'm French and this last year was very hard for me. I begun to developp an energy and emotional block around my chest. The only times, this energy and emotional block leaves, is when I meet new people that I'm captivate to talk with ( a surfer, a bodybuilder for example) I don't know why it works when I find...
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The only resource I have right now is the internet and Reddit but it’s honestly pointless hoping people online can give any positivity or legit answers. I’m way past trying to kill myself at this point all I do is sit and fester with my thoughts and emotions. It affects me physically, some days I get so overwhelmed...
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C’mon, man. I’m tired. Stop replaying the damn scenes inside my head now. I’m tired. You’ve done this for decades now. Give me a damn break.
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I don’t know exactly when I started doing it, but sometimes if I’m having an abuse-centric nightmare, I’m lucid just enough to start screaming in the nightmare so hard that it jolts me awake. It leaves me pretty triggered for the rest of the day, but also grateful that I was able to wake myself up. Does anyone else exp...
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I have intrusive thoughts about my past mistakes and they make me want to cut myself. Luckily I haven’t cut in years, but the urge to do it when I have intrusive thoughts is very strong.
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I thought I could admit my thoughts to her. Thought I can trust her. When we broke up, and yeah I kept annoying her trying to talk and didn't give space but didn't give her the right to post me on Facebook and say I'm a predator and let the world know I've had intrusive thoughts of aweful things. Really painted me to ...
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Just a normal 18 year old. Obese and depressed(i guess). Had a close friend for almost 4.5 years but now he is in a relationship and i guess forgot about me. I was a bright student till midschool but now i am barely passing. Parents have lost all hopes from me. I thought to become a software developer but now don't th...
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Back story: I (20F) have PTSD from child abuse from older women. I constantly live in fear that im going to be hurt again by these same women (especially the ones my dad brings into my life) and am not sure how to live peacefully. Currently, I’m saving up for a car with my retail job to try and get away from the chaos ...
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I have been dealing with OCD and depression and overall mental illness for years now, but recently I’ve realized how far I’ve overcome anxiety and how much I’ve improved with certain parts of OCD. However, my doctor prescribed me for Prozac (an antidepressant which also helps with ocd and anxiety). So far 3 days in I’v...
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I am a 23 year-old female. Not clinically diagnosed, and I don’t plan on doing it, because I don’t think I need accommodations or resources requiring an official diagnosis, and I don’t want to spend $2000 or possible more. I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder a few years back. I believe that was and still is...
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I ended up being so weak from hunger and sleep depravity with a combo of blood pressure meds for my nightmares... it was scary and I felt what I think was my body shut down?. I just feel so pathetic... i had to call my boyfriends brother to help me eat and drink cause I started losing the ability to hear or see. Idk kn...
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I always have a had time telling people about my struggles with this mental illness because they don’t understand what is like to have these thoughts I remember trying to tell someone about my intrusive thoughts and they just called me gross it kinda makes me sad because I wish they could understand but I know they won...
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TLDR: pills was stoled and I gots beat fors acting like I have ADHD, and I'm mad at hypocrisy and the world... I had a troubled childhood and when the govt people in charge of me had enough they sent me (6yo) to a shrink who prescribed some adderall and Ritalin. I'm just a kid, so I don't think much of it, but it help...
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I don’t know if I’m simply burned out because, of school. But I been lacking motivation since the fall. Been feeling I can’t do anything, and whatever I do is not enough. I also get anxious when I’m not distracted by music or a video. So idk what I got myself into. But, it sucks. There’s tons of work that’s needs to be...
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Hi all! i have a friend, who suffers with OCD and I really want to help her to the best that I can, and with saying that I want to reassure her but the way I reassure people comes off as repetitive, is there anything that I can say to her and tell her that may reassure her of her intrusive thoughts? I really do want ...
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Sometimes I forget I have ADHD. That usually happens when I do weird, but harmful things—like forgetting to reply a client email for days. Or seeing the email and just not knowing how to respond. I haven't gotten meds for the past three weeks now, so living has been hell. You'd expect me to reduce my expectations for...
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DISCLAIMER: I am NOT in any way promoting the use of any drugs in this post. I have Asperger's and I have used marijuana twice and both times I had terrible panic attacks because of it. I have read that people with Autism usually have more intense reactions to marijuana but I had auditory hallucinations and could not ...
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Hey first thing I guess I need to say is TW and second I’m not too familiar with what PTSD is and if it fits my situation but just wondering if I need to look into it? I’m 20M At a young age I was abused physically by my dad up to age 10 or so then he went to jail when he finally got in trouble (well a little trouble)...
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I know this probably isn't normal but when I was 6 I was diagnosed with ASD and I never have liked the feeling of body hair pressed on my clothing and shave a lot to get rid of it do they have something for this and does anyone else have this issue I don't want to be rude I know it's different for everyone and it's not...
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My OCD is breaking me right now. I cant stop thinking about stuff from the past and ruminating over it. I confessed some of it to my parents but the cycle isnt ending. Please help me.
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Hi, sorry of this isnt the right place to post this but im at the end of the road. Late diagnosis at uni and have spent the rest of the time trying to make sense of what it means. I have lived 43 years with this and have never taken any meds. Has anyone else started taking meds and how did it affect you? Was the...
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Started out the year with a plan of getting a house. First week into this year my now ex wife decides she wants to open our marriage and doesn’t want to continue being monogamous, I tell her I can’t do that and move out back to my parents. Ended up getting a divorce half way through the year. Lost my cats, my school de...
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biographical information: 18M, senior in high school, currently in the midst of college apps so, I am unsure. A lot of the symptoms and the memes that I have been seeing have been really resonating with me. This meme in particular hit close to home with every one of these symptoms being something that was a major par...
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i dont actually know if im having a hard time right now, maybe i am or maybe im not but i really wanna end everything. i dont know how to handle stuffs like this, i sorta need some help?
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I just need to rant for a minute. My old therapist quit early this year, and I’ve been trying to find a therapist for like 9 months now. I live in a medium sized town, and there’s a lot of therapists around, but I’m having no luck. I found this one group that has therapists that have experience with adhd and trauma, bu...
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I feel my mind constantly takes every little thing in my life that shouldn’t be an issue, and make it “an issue”. My mind is always taking the smallest of things out of context. My main issue that I’ve been struggling with is that my ocd has been telling me that I’m a very hateful and not excepting person. When on the...
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All I(19F) know is that something happened to me. I can’t tell exactly what it is, and when I try to remember I feel anxious and end up losing myself. I get cold, I don’t know where I am, my tummy starts to tell me something is not okay, I get confused and I can't process my surroundings. I understand basically nothing...
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Guess i am not as resilient as i thought or is it years of stress accumulated and my body is hitting its limit.
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Good morning. I’m a 26 year old female. Army. Two combat deployments. Previous sexual trauma. If you have ever experienced night terrors that cultivated from your PTSD, how do you handle it? How do you minimize it if possible? Is there any right I can do to stop these night terrors? Is there anything I can do to make s...
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I’ve been struggling with depression and suicide these past 2 years. I’ve been losing sleep, gaining weight, suffering from mental breakdowns, and have no self worth of any kind. Every single day I suffer from suicidal thoughts, irrational guilt, mood swings, anxiety, low self esteem. It has gotten so bad that I lite...
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While it may not be directly linked to aspergers, it has got to be the number one killer for me when it comes to dealing with aspergers. It is so hard to socialize and fit in when you struggle to comprehend what others are saying. I always have to get people to repeat what they are saying or just move along with the co...
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Hello, So I’ve noticed it before but recently more so. I get quite jealous and feeling left out if friends or my gf are going on a night out with others. Even if it’s a girls night, or different friends that I wouldn’t normally be part of (obviously hits harder if it’s more like I’ve been left out of the invite!) Howe...
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I have a sh*t day to shorten the story a bit. I'm dizzy, feel like a hand is grabbing my chest and squeezing, there is a pain like a needle stinging inside my neck towards my head (I know why but couldn't get to a doctor yet) and have a knee injury that probably will worsen today, after three days of not being able to ...
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I give up on searching for happiness. I give up on seeking help. I give up on trying to make others happy. I give up on trying to make others proud. I give up on trying to set a good example. I give up on trying to build a future for myself. I give up on trying to find love. I give up on trying to get good at hobbies. ...
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It recently dawned upon me that some of my mental problems can be attributed to my parents' relentless helicopter parenting. My mother is possessive and controlling and even tries to tell me who I can and can't date (not that I ever have the options anymore). My brother tried to step in at one point when I was a teenag...
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So I’ve been on Ritalin IR for about a week now, but when it wears off every 2-3 hours it makes me super annoyed and aggressive, as in it affects my road rage as well. I’m debating on letting my doctor know, and she says she won’t be able to switch anytime soon because of a 30 day period. I have way more focus and cont...
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I know that psychiatrists don't diagnose autism based on a brain scan, but could you? For example, I keep seeing this image on Quora: [https://i.imgur.com/RHZjJfv.png](https://i.imgur.com/RHZjJfv.png) Does anyone know what this image is showing? Neurons? Synapses? I know nothing about the brain. If I were to get an...
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I want to cry . I want to allow myself to feel emotions. I also want people to stop coming to me saying they only want to be fucked . LIKE WHAT . I've lost people I have truly loved . I have been used for so long as well . Please make it stop . I WANT SOMEONE TO CARE . ALL I AM IS A OBJECT
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I’m 23, female, living in downtown Milwaukee. I just don’t know what normal people do I guess & I don’t seem to enjoy anything anymore. I have ADHD, PTSD, anxiety&depression. Please send some advice. Th
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Today I dropped off my suits at the dry cleaners. I’m doing the laundry I’ve delayed doing for weeks. I’m cleaning my apartment. I’m still in the midst of the worst depression of my life. Finding the motivation to make a sandwich in my own kitchen the last month had been excruciatingly difficult, let alone going to t...
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How do I get over..,idk if it’s molestation or sexual abuse or if they’re the same thing? One of my uncles used to make me do things/touch me as a child and it’s always freaked me out (sex) ever since then but it hasn’t been a problem until now because I’ve not actually wanted to sleep with anyone until now. I want to...
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This morning I saw a video that was MILDLY disturbing. I found myself anxious and irritable since then. And also, I feel a bit unmoored- like I can’t focus properly or I am missing something really important. What is this exactly that happens to me? How do you settle your brain back down when this happens?
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When I hear someone cough, I get so nervous and scared and even sweat. Same thing happens with my brother who is also diagnosed with OCD. Is that OCD or anxiety?
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Hi I've \[18F\] been having intrusive thoughts about kids. This wasn't really a problem until last month. Before since like middle school and high school I've had sexual fantasies surrounding taboos like rape and incest but I would never actually do incest or enjoy being raped. I would get off by reading erotica howev...
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Heading out to the bridge. I don't have anyone else to send this to. The only thing that really matters in this world is how others view and treat you. How others view and treat you is tied to how you were born; your genetics, race, status, etc, determine if life is worth living. I was born a weak willed, ugly, uni...
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I hate this time of year period.... I always get very very depressed this time of year the pressure to be happy is overwhelming and all the people having the time of there life blah blah blah blah Sorry about my rant but this is just how i feel every fucking year in desember. Happy holidays if you can find inerpeace...
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My OCD has kept me from getting my learner’s permit or drivers license but today I took a huge step forward and passed the test for my learner’s permit! I never thought I could do it, I’ve literally lived my whole adult life doing whatever I could to avoid driving. I was so afraid of everything dangerous about cars. We...
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Hi, since those are my interests it would be very nice if I found a person with the same interests that has OCD Message me pls
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My whole life I’ve daydreamed about having some sort of routine. Daily, morning, or just a loose general one. For example, I want to run in the morning on certain days and read every night, but even these two simple things never stick. I blame my executive dysfunction. I’d love to have my shit together and have ever...
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So I've recently started a new career and it has me dealing with a lot of new people.. i was lucky enough that my last job/career knew i was nuerodivergent and accepting of it, so I always felt comfortable and went years without having to mask, except in certain social situations.. I'm a few weeks into my new job, and...
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I'm really struggling and I just want to forget. I just kinda want amnesia.
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I just started a remote job in Financial Aid under the field of higher education administration. It’s a specialized position with a steep learning curve that requires months of training before even starting the role’s responsibilities. I started on 9/20, and the information has been given very gradually over the last...
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hi all. i've been dealing with ptsd for about two years, and over the last two years, i've noticed my physical disability (ehlers danlos syndrome) get exponentially worse. i was just wondering if there are any known relations between physical and mental disorders making each other worse- even if they're completely un...
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Not sure if this goes here? But does anyone do this thing where they HAVE to twitch their neck a certain way? I've developed a tic where I have to move my head in just a certain way, and it's gotten pretty bad very fast. I don't even realize I'm doing it sometimes. This needs to stoooop. Anyone have any tips?
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Does anyone have any good resources for this? I just started my deep dive on google and so far I'm not finding much. My last relationship was abusive and I'd often have sex when I didn't want to so I could appease my then husband. I remember a time as a preteen where I didn't really know what was going on and a guy pul...
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I don't want to miss out or upset family but I have IBS and contamination OCD and I'm not sure how it will all play out. Does anyone here have any advice?
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I recently saw a question posed on social media asking people if they could do it all over again would they have the same mother. That really messed me up.. I don't know if I would want the same mother again, but more worriessome is I don't think any of my 6 children would want to have me as a mother again.. I honestly...
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Earlier today, I triggered myself while watching a movie that involved how others deal with the aftermath of a bad car accident. I'm still in my danger time of five weeks before and after the anniversary, and the best way to get back to normal-ish is to share it with others. So it you don't mind sticking around for it,...
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I'm having the problem of needing medicated, but my weight is too low. I'm currently at 86 pounds, being 5'7". Normally i am 115 pounds. I lost 30 some pounds in about 9 months. Its part of what pushed me to see a doc and a mental health provider. My mental health doctor won't presribe me any medication at all until ...
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Since age 11 I've always knew something was different about me. I tried to express my concerns to my parents but they told me it's in my head and to get over it. I'm now 21 years old and I still can't talk to my parents because they don't take me seriously. Neither of them know I started medication for adhd.. my own fa...
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so I went on r/advice subreddit and one the replies said this ​ OP- "Today has just felt different from most days and also at one point I think I purposely imagined a child naked but then after felt really guilty about it and also got scared that I was only guilty about my pocd because I might be convicted...
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i swear to fucking god ill never be loved by anyone. im sick and tired of this shit. im so fucking alone.
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Yesterday we were forced to go to a long trip and my mother told me I could absolutely not do any stimming behaviors while there for some unknown reason. It was absolutely painful for me and made me feel extremely bored couple that with the fact I saw my mom as selfish. Although some distractions did help me. But it wa...
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I'm going to the Doctor's on Friday. I'm going to mention my PTSD/CPTSD symptoms. I wrote a note already for myself on what to say/ just give if I'm too scared and I wrote a few memories I had (not the worst ones but the subtle ones...) and it caused me intense panic and anxiety while I was writing it and I couldn't ca...
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Hi. This sort of occurred to me whenever I look at photos of people online. My head tends to tense up and hurt a little when I try to focus on facial communication and expression in general, whether it be eye contact, mouth movement, or even eyebrow motions. This might be connected to some other inherently rooted ment...
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I had some sexual trauma growing up and it’s messing up my life now. I can’t be sexual at all now because every time I get asked, I shut it down because I get this fear. I don’t even know why I’m scared but it hits me like panic and anxiety. And when I’ve done stuff in the past, I’ve basically had to force myself. Im i...
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This is sort of a follow up to previous inquiries I have had about those with autism. Given that as a group, those with autism are much more likely to be unemployed or underemployed vs those who aren't, I would imagine finding partnerships when not having employment thay fully reflects your background and qualificat...
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Does anyone struggle with the idea that neurotypicals often socialize with simplicity and patience? It nearly drives me insane to hear a person hold a conversation with somebody for several minutes to an hour seemingly without difficulty or digression. It feels like everyone else but me has this instruction manual insi...
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English is not my first language I dont know if i can contnue living lo me this. Mu family loves me, but doesent understand me. I have been in my House for a few months Now and i get very anxious at the thought of going outside. Also during this time m not replying to the messages of my few Friends. I LOVE them but i ...
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I have to think of certain words or use certain fingers whenever I touch ANYTHING and if I don't listen to what the OCD voice is saying to me properly I have to redo whatever I just did. There are no OCD specialists around me and I'm only 15 so I have to make do with whatever advice I can find, thanks
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It’s been over ten years, two horrifying relationships. I didn’t know what was wrong with me, that there was something wrong with me. After the first one, my friends saw it. I couldn’t make decisions. My panic attacks. I didn’t have the right therapist (they didn’t want me to talk about what happened) but I didn’t ...
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Lost my credit card few a few days and assumed it would show up. Nope. So I canceled it. Couldn't log into my bank app for a few weeks because well couldn't get my account number. Finally got on like 5min ago. Someone found my card and stole all my money I had saved up. 5000 gone. GONE. FUCKING GONE. Idk If my bank wil...
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When I was a boy, I had a busy leg, always shaking going up and down, I didn't know why but it made me feel good, I found it calming and relaxing. It seemed bizarre, inexplicable to me that no one else did that. My parents reminded me constantly to knock it off. Eventually, I did--in college, I think. I discovered th...
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I got really drunk at a party, went home and I don’t remember much but obviously my mum now knows I drink, she also knows I smokes and vapes, thank god she doesn’t know I do some drugs on the side but I’m done for, no hiding the impulsive side anymore, I can’t even explain properly why I do it, I want to but I never co...
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I don't know what took me so long, but I've gone back to a circular 24-hour daily planner instead of a linear one. There's something about "seeing" time as part of an entire day, including sleep, free time, etc. that helps me keep to a schedule better. Plus, it lets me see where I'm putting my time, or where I should...
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Hey, you there. I want you to ask yourself if this applies to you: Do you feel like you’re walking a dead end road and it’s just a matter of time until it all falls apart? If so, then listen up, because I’ve felt and sometimes still feel the same way, but I know I’m wrong. I know it can feel like a never ending cycle ...
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I'm diagnosed with PTSD and autism among other things, and I'm having a hard time in therapy because every time I try to talk about what happened, my words disappear and I freeze and literally can't talk. Does anyone else experience this? Is there a way around it? It's getting very frustrating.
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It changes between loved ones but as I live with mum it focuses on her alot after sentences she says it's like I purposely find a nasty reply in my head and feel a spike if anxiety in my brain always after I think it a split second after I say no I love her or counteract the insult which doesn't help much. I dnno why i...
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Hi! I have literally been living in a bed since about 2005. Physically, I'm fine, my organs are working fine, but my brain is not. I am currently hospitalized after a failed suicide attempt and this is week 12. That's a long time. I need to find an activity - at least one - that I can enjoy, but nothing makes me happ...
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Im known to be that person who helps everyone else. People always ask me “how do I do it”, “how are you okay with everything”, how are you not afraid” about things that are happening in my life. If I tell them i’m feeling a little depressed (which is an understatement to say the least) they’ll tell me its a phase it’...
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*UPDATE* so many responses! turns out almost all of you drive! I was feeling guilty/left out but now I feel reassured that it may not be my ADHD stopping me after all and more of an anxiety/aversion that I can overcome. I live in a major city in Australia and work from home but I know I need to have it out of necessity...
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Don’t you just hate it when people say ‘just be yourself’ not realising that’s the entire issue?! Hence why we mask. We can’t be ourselves unless we want to face isolation, unemployment and be completely and utterly vulnerable. NTs really do not grasp what it’s like to be us no matter how much you drill it in to them...
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Hey friends. So, I had a revelation the other day about my depression and I wanted to share it in case it helps someone understand themselves more. For me, I spent most of my life feeling things so deeply. I was deeply embarrassed (social anxiety). Deeply insecure (binge eating). Deeply irritable and angry (communica...
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Note: I couldn't choose between success and empathy. Aldo sorry if this ends up being long, y'all know how streams of consciousness can be. So first off; not officially diagnosed yet. Have most of the symptoms, have a specialist appointment, and when at rock bottom a month ago I begged my family doctor to try Vyvanse...
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My husband shaved his beard in a different way to normal. That was yesterday. I still cant look at his face. It makes me feel really uncomfortable and makes me want to cry. I told him I am sorry. I told him I have difficulties looking at him because of this sudden change. And I realize this is ridiculous but still I fe...
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Hello,I have some problems.when i like sb I do what ever i can and do my best for them but none of them love me and thats the reason i hate my self help me pls i cant get rid of my toughts and it hurts i think nobody loves me
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it's 2:23am on a Friday/Saturday night/morning on the west coast of the US. i'm having an existential crisis that never ends. it envelopes every aspect of my life. i would love to have relief from the thoughts. i keep trying to convince myself that life is worth living. but it just sounds like i'm lying to myself....
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Hey everyone my (20M) long distance girlfriend (19F) of 1 year has been depressed for like 3 months on and off. She seemed fine for awhile but then went back to acting the same way. When I try to ask how she feels she says she's fine and when I ask her whats going on she says she's busy with some stuff but never more s...
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I have been talking to my psychiatrist about ADHD. He's ignored me forever. Last week I put him on the spot and told him I want to get tested or evaluated. He said since I didn't have symptoms as a kid, I didn't have it. He then proceeded to tell me he only recommends holistic treatment for ADHD. Omega 3 for exampl...
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Basically, when I don’t play video games, which is my only hobby, I get extremely bored, so since ADHD is basically having a under-stimulated brain. Personally, can video games help stimulate my brain or somehow help with my ADHD?? This is a very important question for me, as I am very curious to see your answers…
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My name is Dr. Sam Greenblatt. I treat many patients who report they’ve been to an Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) specialist who used exposure and response prevention (ERP), diligently completed all therapy homework assigned by their clinician, and received no results, dissatisfying results or rebounded to their ...
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I skateboard and sometimes bike. I want to hear others on the spectrum's sport activity.
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I just need to get my mind straight right now so lets talk. We can talk about anything, movies, games, I'm really into model kits.
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Quite often recently I keep having episodes where I think something out. Go to implement usually work emails or client communications and as I'm typing out what I had in my brain everything does a 180 and my brain moves on to something else without my consent but my hands are still trying to finish what I originally s...
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I am still very new to researching this and I have not got a formal diagnosis. I am just wondering if I should bring this up to my psychiatrist. I need things to be a very specific way. For example, something almost constantly has to be touching the middle of my palm or my whole body feels uncomfortable. Sometimes I ...
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Okay so I have my comfort Zones while working and told that I would never clean bathrooms or anything that gave me issues. But today I overcame those fears and issues and utterly destroyed who know how many germs and tribes of the Delta Variant were destroyed by my own will by using nothing more then a spray bottle and...
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I'd say I'm pretty good at written maths. I'm consistently getting the equivalent of a grade A in my maths exams and I'm going to take Maths and Further Maths next year. However, I literally cannot do maths in my head without paper or a calculator. Even something simple like 1000-10, I cannot do. The numbers just sit t...
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